As you know, I've been very weak these past months. It's something very personal actually which I think is very important for me to share, especially when it's quite a common problem for women.
Since last year, I've had 2 bad menstrual periods with very very heavy blood clots, lasting about 3 weeks each time. There were periods in between that were very light. I didn't want to take it seriously as I was afraid of knowing the truth. Bert and my mum persuaded me to see the doctor, but I always say "wait a few more days lah, see if it stops" and it did...at least for the last few times last year.
My period didn't come for 2 months since Dec 08 to Feb 09. I know I'm not pregnant, so I worry there's a growth in my womb. I saw the GP and he referred me to the polyclinic for ultrasound scan. Result : a 4cm fibro and at least 2 1cm cryst and a very thick uterus wall. Went back to the GP and he gave me tablets to start the period. (Amazing! I didn't know they have medicines to start the period). He wasn't too worried about the fibrio and crysts saying they are too small to worry about. He suggested I try the PILL (birth control pill) to help regulate the cycle and therefore reduce the loss of blood. I believe it was a MISTAKE to have taken the pill as my period didn't stop even till now as I am writing this blog! The bleeding was so very very bad that I finally called for help, went to A&E, immediately hospitalised and had blood transfusion!!
(Below: 2nd empty blood pint bag)
Morale of the story....don't delay seeking medical help! I went in just a day after the recent Geylang food poisoning case. Luckily it was a day after otherwise I would have been waiting forever in A&E for a bed. Also after hearing how unfortunate the lady was to have died over food poisoning, I realised that it was so very stupid of me for I could have died from extremely low blood count just because of my period. My kids are so young and Bert so loves me, I must be around for them still. I want to live a long good life with Bert and see the girls grow up and be independent or married with their own kids.
(Bert, tired from attending to me at CGH and running back home to ferry the girls for tuition/choir practices)
Today, I'm just back from my gynae checkup. Tomorrow, I'm going in for day surgery. He's doing a cleanup of my uterus wall and inserting a iuv thingy that will be in my womb wall for 5 years, releasing minute quantities of hormones to, hopefully, regulate my flow. The gynae doesn't know yet if there's any cancerous growth in my womb, so I am effectively signing over my life to him...if it's cancerous, he'll remove my womb. If not, the iuv thingy goes in.
I had discussed with Bert about the stand of the Church....1stly the 21day contraceptive pill is against the Church teaching, but we decided for the sake of my health to just try in 1 time. Well, it didn't work, and we felt, was most likely the cause of the prolonged period. Now the IUV thingy...the gynae assured me it's not a contraception thingy but is instead used, for my case, as a device to release hormones directly to my womb.
I had gone through key-hole surgery before for the removal of my gall-bladder and I went in with a false brave-front (I'm a coward actually and I actually cried on the operating table out of fear of dying) for the sake of the children. I will have to go through this episode of my life also for the sake of my children.
Whilst waiting to see the gynae, Bert and I saw a show about a couple dancing and I told Bert, could we learn to dance as a couple? I would love to dance with him till we are old.
You may not know this, but I used to like dancing, and although Bert is quite a good dancer, he doesn't like dancing! So when he told me it's a good idea, to dance for exercise as well as a hobby, I guess he must have felt just as sentimental as me. Life is to short, let's just live it!
Please pray for me...I am worried and a bit scared about tomorrow, but I also somehow feel at peace, knowing that God has placed in very capable hands.
Love Theresa
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