Death - my personal reflections

Dear All

Regarding Albert's post on Death and his fear of the grief associated with the passing of me :

The ME sharing of "if tomorrow never comes" had a great impact on me. Death is something we don't readily talk about. I remembered I cried alot during that weekend session with Albert. With Albert's mum's death, some of my sorrow was also my fear of Albert's death, and even of my own death. I believe my fear stems from my shaky belief in God. My faith is very weak as it is based on things I can see. My faith is based on my mum's and dad's experiences in Medjorie where they saw the sun turning to the face of Mother Mary, and then to the Host with their naked eyes, and this was seen together with at least 2 other friends as they held hands to pray the rosary. My dad still wears the image of that apparation as a medal round his neck. My dad is not as prayerful as my mum, so when I asked him if he saw what my mum said, he told me he did.

As I had shared in my earlier blog on having an intimate communication with God, I have come to accept the reality of my death and that there's a God waiting for us to bring us home. It's not something I would believe in everyday. Some days this fear and doubt would still haunt me, but I find solace in reading the bible and hearing God's words. The words of Jesus and His life experiences helps me a lot. I guess I have started my communication with God. It's something I have to work on everyday, if possible. Just like my communication with Albert. If I miss out a day or two in having either a heart-to-heart talk or just snuggling up to each other for assurance of his love for me, I feel that we are growing a part. I hope our recent grieving of the death of a love one and our sharing of our experiences would help you, our friends, to start or be encouraged to continue with your communication with God and with your spouse. On earth, what counts at the end of our live here is how intimate is our relationships with our loved ones. After life here, it's how intimate is your relationship with God for eternity. I hope my relationship with God is deep and strong as I journey to my life's end here on earth.

Love Theresa