My godfather pass away 10years ago...i was very close to him.He was my mentor in almost everything,i consult him in almost everything too eg,business decision,handling of personal issues etc etc
Thinking back 10 years ago,on the day he pass away at the hospital,he dont like to be in the hospital,but after much persuasion from me and my mum he finally went on a Tuesday(he was on Dialysis n his legs are swelling) and we were glad.Come the next day at abt 10 plus am,his maid called from hospital and says that my godfather wanted to eat chicken rice(his favorite).I was very busy that day.I finished my morning appointments n rush to buy chicken rice for him,but then i recieved an urgent call from my client to see them urgently,I have got no choice but to just call the maid to pick up the chicken rice at the hospital drop of point.That was abt 1230pm.
I rushed to see my client.Within half an hr,i recieve a call from my godbrother to better rush to hospital.I told my client n i rush to hospital.while on the way there,many things flashing through my mind(can i get there in time to see him?He has said before,he doesnt want to die in hospital,will he blame or angry with me for persuading him to go hospital the day before and also he said to me before that he wants every loves one to be by his side before he goes).
When i reached there,the doctors were trying to revive him but after 15 mins they came out and told us that he was gone.I cant believe myself,i broke down,all those that my godpa wanted was not fulfilled,nobody was by his bedside except his maid.I really really felt so bad and angry with myself at same time....later i learned from the maid that he having my packet of chicken rice before when he had a heart attack.
I asked,how can he just go like that?I guess is God planned,He doesnt want me to go through the agony of seeing him passing away in front of me(i might not be able to take it on that sudden moment).After the funeral,the painful memories lingers,the sight of his bed cause me to breakdown.Time heals,but deep in my heart,i still miss him and ocassionally he appeared in my dreams.
Death is one thing we just have to accept,we just have to prepare ourslves n pray n pray to prepare ourselves for that day to come.

Have to bring Andrew for threapy liao! will try to continue tonite.....

Joseph